I will win this battle eventually

Today I intend to follow intuitive eating principle. I cannot imagine how I am going to withdraw myself from food addiction. It seems impossible that I will forget about food completely and live my life without the shadow of it. But I know I'm walking towards that direction. Slowly and surely. What I have to concentrate is to keep walking on this track without being distracted by the desire to be thin, to go on yet another diet. I know it does not work and will never work.

Another important thing is to pay attention. Just pay attention even though I still cannot control the urge to overeat and the strong impulse to satisfy it. I only have to pay attention and keep track of it. I will finally understand it if I listen. I can be confident about that even though I have no idea about other things else.


I crave pretzel today after talking to my boyfriend and feel like maybe he's not happy with how I end the conversation. (I excuse myself because I feel like I have so much work to do.) I thought I am not quite an emotional eater. I actually am. I just have to listen.